Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I Broke Up With My (Sexual) Girlfriend Tonight
We weren't that close (I'd never even blogged about her), but we'd wanted to improve that. One way I suggested so was to get her look at resources for sexuals on asexuals, but it didn't help. As stated on the title we broke up. She said some ace-phobic remarks such as it's just my age and as I get older I'll somehow magically develop sexual interest. She also said that if I were to meet her (online dating) I'd magically want to fuck her. Holy shit, my ex-girlfriend was a Hogwarts student! She denied the very existence of asexuality. Truth be told, I don't know what to think. I have very weak romantic attraction to girls, so most girls I'm just not attracted to. It's not like I want a celebrity either, the anorexic women who parade society, but just girls I know I'm attracted to, which are few. I don't think I was ever attracted to my girlfriend (but in this case it didn't have to do with our relationship). I don't know whether to be her friend or not because her ace-phobia makes me feel ashamed of talking to her. I mean we broke up because I was never going to ever go beyond making out with her. I can understand that because she was sexual she wanted sex, but the ace-phobic comments weren't needed.
For a while she wanted cyber-sex, but I said no. She was perhaps hornier than Quagmire (seriously). She made me feel uncomfortable, and I constantly tried to avoid the topic. I told her I was asexual, but she ignored that.
I really can't imagine having another girlfriend. I mean I guess it'll happen, but my attraction is so weak. . .
So if we do talk again, if she's still an ace-hater I'll most likely stop speaking to her.
So what do you guys think? My ex was extremely ace-phobic, and I really hate ace-phobia. I don't know whether to cry or not. I feel ashamed with the fact that I'm sad, but I'll survive.
I think I'll have some cake while I listen to Queen.
And I might just play Pokemon, too. I guess it's not too bad being a bachelor.