We weren't that close (I'd never even blogged about her), but we'd wanted to improve that. One way I suggested so was to get her look at resources for sexuals on asexuals, but it didn't help. As stated on the title we broke up. She said some ace-phobic remarks such as it's just my age and as I get older I'll somehow magically develop sexual interest. She also said that if I were to meet her (online dating) I'd magically want to fuck her. Holy shit, my ex-girlfriend was a Hogwarts student! She denied the very existence of asexuality. Truth be told, I don't know what to think. I have very weak romantic attraction to girls, so most girls I'm just not attracted to. It's not like I want a celebrity either, the anorexic women who parade society, but just girls I know I'm attracted to, which are few. I don't think I was ever attracted to my girlfriend (but in this case it didn't have to do with our relationship). I don't know whether to be her friend or not because her ace-phobia makes me feel ashamed of talking to her. I mean we broke up because I was never going to ever go beyond making out with her. I can understand that because she was sexual she wanted sex, but the ace-phobic comments weren't needed.
For a while she wanted cyber-sex, but I said no. She was perhaps hornier than Quagmire (seriously). She made me feel uncomfortable, and I constantly tried to avoid the topic. I told her I was asexual, but she ignored that.
I really can't imagine having another girlfriend. I mean I guess it'll happen, but my attraction is so weak. . .
So if we do talk again, if she's still an ace-hater I'll most likely stop speaking to her.
So how am I dealing with the break up other than venting to close friends, my blog, and AVEN? I'm listening to Queen songs that aren't about breaking up, and trying to figure out how I feel.So what do you guys think? My ex was extremely ace-phobic, and I really hate ace-phobia. I don't know whether to cry or not. I feel ashamed with the fact that I'm sad, but I'll survive.
I think I'll have some cake while I listen to Queen.
And I might just play Pokemon, too. I guess it's not too bad being a bachelor.
I'm so sorry you're feeling down in the dumps over your break up. *hugs if you accept hugs from blogging strangers* I really hope you feel better soon - from the sounds of it, just not having the ace-phobia around would probably be a good thing. I don't know if I could be in a relationship with someone who thought those sorts of things about us. (Fellow ace here, though never been in a relationship and generally clueless when it comes to that sort of thing. This may be evident in this comment.)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I also wanted to say that I like your blog! I found it via feministe and am now adding it to my ace blog list. :)